26

26… An interesting age to turn. You have passed 25 which makes you feel like a quarter of a century old but at the same time, you haven’t hit the 30’s which then again makes you feel still a bit young. As I turn 26 so many things flash my mind. What am I expecting out of my life and do I have enough time to still make it all happen?

For starters the day itself was quite nice. Although it was gloomy and rainy the first half, my husband was sweet to surprise me with a beautiful bouquet of flowers. IMG_8144The minute the florist rang the door and I received my bouquet, my mood suddenly changed! It’s as if my husband had read my mind and knew exactly what I needed to start my day the right way!

As the day continued, I prepared myself for my husband’s big surprise that night. He wanted to take me somewhere nice for dinner to celebrate the big day, but before dinner, he yet surprised me again.

Arriving home, he held a huge cake that resembled a suitcase covered with a little stamps of the adventures that we had shared. There was a Mauritius stamp, a Disney World, among others- the thought was so cute and thoughtful that I couldn’t but smile. The time he spent thinking every detail out of the day was just so sweet that I truly was surprised every step of the way. IMG_8130

After eating a piece of cake for good luck’s sake and blowing out the candles, we made our way out to dinner! We also enjoyed our time as he took me to a nice restaurant with good music and even better great company. He was just the sweetest through his actions.

After dinner, we came back home and celebrated the rest of the evening. He had yet another surprise waiting for me. Another present so thoughtfully picked out, that I was just thinking the whole time to myself, how could I have been so lucky to have found a guy as sweet as him. He is just so thoughtful, honest, and loving, that I couldn’t picture my life without him.

So back to the main question of today’s post- with everything that has happened in my life so far, do I feel like it’s on track? Honestly, there is no telling if what I am doing is right or wrong, but all I know is that what I am doing in my life today is making me happy, and I think that’s the most important thing in life. Happiness is more valuable than any other asset out there. So I guess, what I have to say, is that turning 26 might have made me a little older, but my heart is young and happy.

Happy day people and bisous! xoxo

TH

Another Friday

Good Afternoon Beautiful People ❤

It’s finally Friday, and as much as I want to say TGIF, for me it feels like a Tuesday. Recently my days have been so shuffled that I can’t tell which day is which. Since my husband has been working six days a week with alternative days off, my week seems to start and end so quickly that I can’t manage the right rhythm. Luckily, this module that he is rotating in will end soon allowing me to get back on track.

Despite my confusion in days, I have honestly been proud of myself. With the warming weather and the desire to be more productive throughout my days, I have been succeeding quite well. Lately, I have pushed myself to workout to get back in that habit and my body, although sore,  feels much better than before. As I mentioned in my last post, I have been working on these lower body exercises that actually feel like they are doing the job. If I seem some results in a month’s worth, I will for sure share them.

Now that Summer is almost here, I want to try to be in shape. I want to feel accomplished and not dread the feeling of putting on a bathing suit. Although I am not overweight or anything, my body could use a little toning. That’s why my aim is to focus on toning exercises that use light weights and consist of a lot of reps. So here’s to hoping that these drills will work.

Another focus of mine recently, is paying more attention to my body and what it’s telling me. I know I sound a bit crazy when I say that, but recently my stomach has been making so many noises and feeling so bloated all the time especially after I eat. So I realized that a huge player in this ballgame could be dairy which for me is catastrophic as I cannot live without my cheeses and cream in my coffee. In general, I always have some sort of dairy in my day so although cutting it out would probably be the best way to test it, I instead have started taking a lactose pill prior to eating anything with dairy in it to see how it works. So far this morning, it is working like a charm- I just hope it keeps on going :p

So for all of you who feel like today is actually Friday and your weekend starts tomorrow, I want to say Happy Friday, and for those of you who are in the same boat as me, hang in there, our weekend will come!

Bisous

TH

My Mama

On this Mother’s Day I’d like to write a short passage for my mama. Since day one I’ve always been called a mini Nanette (that’s my mom’s name btw), and I’d become so happy whenever someone would call me that. WhatsApp Image 2017-03-21 at 2.24.11 PMMy mother is the most beautiful, caring, compassionate, and innocent woman with the purest heart. She has taught me how to love, care, and enjoy life.

Since the day I was born, she has been nothing but selfless- Putting her four children and husband always before her own happiness. She has sacrificed her life in order to raise us properly, and has showed us compassion and the nurture of caring. I can’t remember a time in which I didn’t need my mama standing next to me. Through thick and thin, she’s been there. The things my mother has done for us throughout the years, I know for a fact, is not something many mothers would do.

She raised four children along with my father of course, but due to his work he wasn’t always capable of being around (he’s an amazing father, but you’ll know more about him on fathers day). WhatsApp Image 2017-03-21 at 2.24.05 PMShe put her education on hold in order to raise us. As we got older she started working part time, and managed to work, cook, clean, and take care of us all at once- in my eyes I saw a Super Woman.

I want nothing but the best for my mama. I hope to always see her happy and smiling, because her laughter brings joy to me that is so contagious. I hope one day to be half the woman that she is, and I hope to at least be half of the mother she is to my future children. Life isn’t easy, but my mama has managed to help me get through it. She always listens, and genuinely cares about what I have to say. I honesty can’t picture my life without her, and I wouldn’t be the woman I am today if it wasn’t for her. WhatsApp Image 2017-03-21 at 2.23.59 PM.jpeg

So on this lovely Mother’s Day, I want to thank you for everything you’ve done mamasitta! I really hope to make you proud one day, as proud as I am to have you as my mama. I adore you Nanette Hajj❤️

A Quickie

Okay so by the title, you’re probably assuming that you are going to read something dirty, but this is simply a rush to share with you my day- not to mention I typed this out already and it so kindly deleted! As I mentioned in my last post, now that the storm has passed, my objective is to be more productive with my days.

Today was a great start as every Monday started the same way it usually does with laundry and chores around the house. With that successfully done, it was time for my husband to come home and join me for a quick brunch before hitting the gym. For brunch I fixed us up a good omlette with some spices, spinach, tomatoes, cheese, turkey and on the side some of my speciality fresh mixed avocado. (All I have is the picture of the spinach as I was so hungry, I wasn’t able to catch a picture before my mouth devoured it)After eating that so fast, we let our bellies rest for about an hour before hitting the gym.

At the gym, I successfully felt like I completed a great workout. I will definitely share with you the steps if it gives great results. It was lower body day, so you can imagine how great it feels now to be laying in bed. After gymming (not sure if that’s a word but I will take it) my husband and I headed to wash my very dirty car then to my favorite sushi place: Ichiban! Dinner consisted of some sashimi, salad, and a miso soup. So delicious, it’s making me hungry! 

The day didn’t stop there as we headed to our friendly 24 hour supermarket 😆. We were there till 10 pm about two hours- the trip was due and much needed! I can understand why my husband was so ready to leave though. 

Back home, showered and all clean, I am honestly super happy with the results of today. I felt productive and accomplished and best of all it boosted my happiness. So if there is anything I can recommend to the women who share my life right now, keep busy as it makes you feel so happy! 

Enough for now and time for me to get some shut eye! Bisous lovely people ❤

TH

PS- to catch my whole story follow @neglichic and my personal page @tanyahajj on insta! 

Three Steps for Now

It’s been a little while since I have posted something on the blog-every day and night I have been attempting to write something, but honestly felt there was nothing to write about.

The past couple days have been very cold here with yet another Winter storm passing through. The weather has been so inconsistent that it just plays with my mood and creativity. I’ve been patiently waiting for Spring weather to arrive, but unfortunately, Spring doesn’t seem to be close by.

I know I recently wrote about making the best of every situation and trying to be optimistic, but what can I say, I am human. This month so far has been quite the roller coaster- With the weather unwilling to commit to a season or temperature, my body has chosen to commit to staying indoors ultimately furthermore affecting my mood and opinion about the place I reside.

I know that I am the sole playmaker in my mood swings, but at the same time, there are days that I simply just want to give up on anything and everything and just do nothing at all. A little note about me- my mood is very, VERY, subject to the weather. I hate the cold, and especially hate it when there is no sun. Luckily, although today it’s freezing outside, the sun has still made its presence.

Back to what I was saying about basically hibernation- There are ways to overcome this period in the weather per say. For a stay at home wife with no kids to cater to yet, it’s still weird for me to say that, after all the errands are done around the house, it’s so easy to just sink into the couch and wait-wait till he comes home, wait till you go out again- the vicious cycle of waiting is just so easy to hop on. But it’s so important, and I emphasize important to find something you love to do in the mean time so you don’t feel like you’re just wasting your life, which to be completely honest, I recently have felt.

It’s time to make a plan of what needs to be done so I can leave this cycle I have been such a part of. It’s true a lot have suggested that I find a job, but to be completely frank, I know myself enough that working for the sake of just working isn’t going to make me happy- as I previously mentioned before, I graduated in Business Fashion (shorter way of saying it) and honestly that’s my true calling. So for me to just work anything, isn’t going to advance my career or make me happy- it’s just gonna use my time up and make me more unhappy living here.

So aside the rant, for those of you who can’t find something you are truly passionate about job wise , Step 1, I recommend as my mother always said, to find a hobby. Something that you can be proud of after spending time on. My mother used to paint- I like to write, so I started this blog to share different insights and to connect to other women who share my story. I also started creating jewelry and cooking and baking different recipes that required more time. IMG_7915With the time that I have had, I have become more in sync with what I truly love to do.

Now I have said what I have done, but now to share what I plan to do is Step 2. Clearly all that I have been doing hasn’t sufficed for me, so my next step is to make a plan of what I attend to achieve in the next couple of months. For starters, I want to excel in my exercise. Recently, before the storm passed through, I was going to the gym at least two to three times a week, but when the weather got cold again, just like a bear, I ate and stayed in.  This time, hopefully starting tomorrow, I plan to workout every other day, even if it means staying at home and doing a couple of exercises- which believe it or not works! So I plan on really getting that going.

Step 3, which is the last step I will share for today so I don’t occupy your whole day with this article is to plan ahead. There are actually going to be a lot of things going on around us when the weather gets warmer, so with the time that I have now, I want to start planning weekend trips and discovering the new activities around town. I think this will allow me to have something to look forward to. With my husband working 6 days a week, our time together is limited, so if I have a plan of what to do together, we can make the most out of it.

For now, I will let you go, but as the week progresses, I will share with you my accomplishments!

Happy Friday and Bisous

TH

More than a Best Friend

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Freshman year, Spring semester, and I was taking a Sociology 101 course, to complete my credits for the year- As I’m sitting in the middle of the classroom, a guy walks right in.. all I can remember is realizing how tall he was, and how short I was. The semester went by, and we became acquainted, but not close friends. I remember thinking how annoying he was interrupting the class each lecture just so he could mess around. When midterms came around I found him lost, and not ready for the exam. Here, being the “Zeina” that I always am, I offered to help him study an hour before our midterm. He ended up getting a higher grade than me, and never let it go. As the years passed by, we stayed acquainted, but again not close friends. Little did I know that the guy who I quickly judged too fast and that I found to be so obnoxious and probably one of the biggest jerks attending AUB, would be the man who stole my heart away four years later.

Summer semester right before my Senior year, I found myself growing closer to him. We became very fond of each other. We sat every day in a coffee shop drinking coffee, smoking cigarettes, and talking (of course this was before my attempt to quit :p).  He became a really good friend of mine that I found comfort and love in. As we got closer, we had these moments that couldn’t be explained. Something would happen that would confuse both of us, but we simply just started at each other or joked about it. I felt daily that I had this love towards him that was different than the rest of my friends. I cared for him in a way that I had never cared for anyone before.  I was always worried about him and I wanted him to be the best that he could be. Everything about him affected me and I just wanted him happy, as happy as I wanted someone in my family.

I still remember one day when he came up to me, a little buzzed, telling me that I’m the one he wanted to marry-that regardless of our past, and whom we are with now, WE were going to end up together (Keep in mind I was dating someone else at the time). I remember that moment was one of the happiest moments of my life, even though I knew there could be a huge possibility of him just messing around with me. I still wanted to believe it.

I wanted to be that girl for him. I wanted him to know how much I loved him, but I was scared. I was scared of rejection, I was scared of religion getting in the way, and I was scared of getting hurt. I still remember him telling me how he knew I wasn’t in love with my boyfriend and how I just was more in love with the idea than the guy I was dating himself. At the moment, he cracked me. He figured something out that I wasn’t even aware of. This moment right there released so many ideas in my head, and allowed my feelings to start showing. I wanted to block everything, but at the same time I couldn’t anymore. I was exploding on the inside, and I was sad. I wanted to share with him how I felt, but at the same time, I wanted to know what my feeling were towards him.

But why him? Why did I feel this towards him? The most messed up part is that I was also dating. How could a guy get in my head this much? How could I think about him on a 24/7 basis, and I be dating someone at the same time?

Shortly, towards the end of the semester, I realized that I couldn’t hold my feelings in anymore, and all this confusion was driving me insane. WhatsApp Image 2017-03-14 at 10.24.07 AM

It takes guts spilling your heart out, and not knowing what the other person will respond  or how they’ll react. At this moment this friendship was either going straight to the trash or things were going to work out. Telling him how I felt was probably one of the best, yet scariest decisions of my life. Even though calling him after finishing half a bottle of wine, wasn’t the most clever thing to do, I wouldn’t have it any other way.

I’m so thankful, that I spilled my heart out to him on Christmas Eve. Even though things  got a bit awkward after telling him, it still felt right. Nothing with him ever felt wrong. Every decision that I make with him, or just the fact knowing that he’s standing next to me, feels right. Is it possible to have such strong feelings towards someone? Is it possible to love every single thing about him, even his flaws and imperfections.

In my eyes, he’s perfect. He’s mine. He flipped my world upside down. He brought me back to life (as cheesy as that sounds), and helped my personality grow. WhatsApp Image 2017-03-14 at 10.24.00 AMHe revealed the real version of me who had been in hiding for so long. For the first time in my life I had been fixed and healed, instead of trying to fix or help someone else. He got the real me, which is something not a lot of people see, and he became family, which is very important to me.

Having a best friends is one thing, but dating your best friend is a whole other level of happiness.
Dating your best friend allows you to grow, and to be yourself at the same time. I became the happiest woman alive, and all thanks to the joy that he puts in my life. He helps me grow and become a better person, as well as focus and start thinking of my future.  I was always so scared of the future, always wanting one, but I always felt pressured to have it. With him, it’s different. This is something I want. This is something I need, daily. Someone, whom I know that for the rest of my life, I never want to let go. I don’t know where the future will take us, but as long as he’s by my side, I think we will be okay.